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"life is beautiful"-type. I have never really thought that it actually is hard. Mostly because I
have never thought what the real life is like. Ofcourse I have seen it, it's all around me, but
only seeing and seeing plus thinking through what you see are two really different things.
An example: have you ever been to a funeral of a collateral relative as a child? Do you
remember what you felt? I remember I felt almost nothing and I never cried. When someone
died, for example a granduncle, I didn't feel particularly sad, because as long as it wasn't
anyone close to me, the death didn't influence my life in any way. Now a few weeks back my
great-grandmother died, and even if I didn't know her and had only seen her a few times in
my life, I flustered. The fact that someone I'm related to will never be here again, made me
feel really scared and uncomfortable. What if it was someone really close to me? What will I
do when that happens? How will I handle that
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